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03.04.2009
Livet (Norwegian verison)
Aldri vil jeg forbanne min Skaper
Som pustet liv i min sjel da eggcellen og sædcellen smeltet sammen
Som visste om alle mine dager på jorden
Selv før celledelingen hadde startet
Som elsket meg med sin endeløse kjærlighet
Selv før jeg hadde rukket å ta et eneste riktig valg
Aldri vil jeg forbanne Livet
Som jeg ble tildelt
Selv om det kunne sies å være det jeg aldri kunne noe for
Livet
Som presenterte verden for meg dag for dag
Som gav meg mennesker jeg kunne bli glad i
Som viste meg menneskehetens utilstrekkelighet
Som vekte de dypeste følelser i meg
Som tillot tanker stadig å omskrives
Som lot meg bli en del av denne verdens historie
Aldri vil jeg undervurdere Livets betydning
Den oppstod med Skaperens valg om en hensikt
Den varer for alltid i en forbarmende god evighet
Evigheten skapt for oss alle
Livets betydning manifesterer seg i hvert enkelt menneske
Hver eneste en med sin iboende kraft til forandring
Den er umulig å bagatellisere
Aldri vil jeg undervurdere sorgen over et liv som er tapt
Tapet som oppleves som en ruinering av sitt eget liv
Som et umettelig savn
Som en utømmelig brønn fylt opp av elendighetens tårer
Like fullt vil jeg glede meg over livet som fortsatt eksisterer
Både i meg selv her på jorden
Og i den sjel som har gått foran til Lysets Rike.
Life (English version)
Never will I curse my Creator
Who breathed life into my soul when the ovum and the sperm melted together
Who knew about all of my days on earth
Even before the cell division had started
Who loved me with his endless love
Even before I had found the time to make one single right choice
Never will I curse the Life
Which I was granted
Even though it could be said to be the only factor I did not choose
Life
Which presented the world to me day by day
Which gave me people I could love
Which showed me the humanity’s insufficiency
Which aroused the deepest emotions inside of me
Which allowed thoughts to be continuously circumscribed
Which let me be a part of this world’s history
Never will I underestimate the importance of life
It arouse with the Creators choice of a purpose
It lasts forever in a mercyful and good eternity
Eternity created for all of us
The importance of life is manifested in every human being
Each single one with its immanent power to change
It is impossible to minimize
Never will I underestimate the grief for a life that is lost
The loss that is experienced as a ruination of one’s own life
As an insatiable want
As an inexhaustible well filled up with tears of misery
None the less I will be happy about the life that still exists
Both in myself here on earth
And in that soul that went ahead to the Kingdom of Light
25.09.2008
In just one day
In just one day
Colors turned from grey to yellow
Chords turned from minor to major
Life turned from hopeless to pleasant
What makes me believe again and again
That the darkness is unwavering
When the glittering sun always returns to its position?
The sun rises and the sun sets
Forever it will be this way
Life teaches about the seasons
Life is about to change
Always
Developing to something new
Still returning to the familiar
In just one day
Words turned from weary to carefree
Tastes turned from tasteless to spicy
Odor turned from perspiration to perfume
In just one day
24.09.2008
It's night
It's night
The time is 2:35
I'm twisting and turning in my bed
For every new position I believe I'll fall asleep
But then I need another position
In my mind
Thoughts are travelling with a high speed
They replay situations from the past
They picture situations in the future
Then they zoom out to present
And concentrate on finding a new position
It's night
The time is 2:43
I'm angry at myself since I can't fall asleep
But the more I think about it
The harder it gets
In my mind
Thoughts travel from one place to another
They travel the whole world in just a few seconds
They show me the boy I used to love
He played the drums
In the states I played hand percussion
The hand percussion class was boring
My room mate also thought some classes were boring
She wants to visit me in Norway
Where should she stay then?
Where should I stay in a couple of months?
I should apply for a loan tomorrow
It would have been easier to get a loan if I had a husband
I should have married the boy I used to love...
Thoughts are busy like the aunts
They never rest
Not even in the night
Thoughts are many
They cannot be counted
Not even with the best computer in the world
It's night
The time is 2:58
I don't have to rush falling asleep
It just won't help anyway
I will enjoy every thought,
every move,
every breath,
every...,
every...
zzz
15.09.2008
One Moment
One moment
stealing moments from the future
shooting peace dead before its resurrection
What seemed so innocuous
turned out to prove the bulletproof protection
useless
Convulsions to break free
were left behind
like a fire quickly put out
with rising smoke as the only token of
a lost battle
Banners with exclamation marks
Banners with arrows
Blinded itself on purpose
just for a while...
One moment
only one moment
painted the walls black
covered the details of glory
until a new room was entered
and the gold again could dazzle the eyes
Lovely, senseless pleasure
caressing naked skin
Every touch a new foundation stone to
build the prison of grief
One moment
never was one moment
but a part of forever


